Dear God,
Help me. This year our word was obedience. And though I started the year determined, the enemy and my flesh have formed all the weapons they can against my spirit.
I have been so unmotivated. I can count on my two hands the amount of times I have opened my Bible this year, and we are already ½ way in.
I have not done anything I have set out to do. None of my goals accomplished.
I know that there is still more to the year, but I feel so defeated.
I am allowing myself to be defined by my mental health. I don’t want to do that anymore. I don’t want ADHD, Depression, and Anxiety to have this chokehold on me like it does. I want to be able to do things because I have YOU. Because YOU are the feet that are guiding me, the hand I am holding, the light in the darkness.
This time last year, I did a 24-hour fast for you to reveal yourself to me in my finances. Since then, Lord, I have not had to work a second job, and we are not living frilly by any means, but the bills are paid and we are no longer drowning.
I think I need to stop trying to control my mental health, and give that to you also, Lord. Maybe that is what you have been trying to tell me.
Maybe that is how I can truly listen to you and walk on the path you have for me.
Lord,
Today, I thank you for revealing yourself to me time and time again. For your grace and mercy that are never-ending. For your love that envelops me. For your protection over me and my family. For your truth.
Thank you, Jesus.
And it is in your name that I pray, that I lay it all down to.
Amen.